If you have been reading this blog, you are well aware what the doubt monster is. It’s that little voice in the back of our heads that keep us from believing in ourselves. If I ever find a way to completely shut it up, I’ll share it with the world.
My doubt monster has been loud and active most of my life. I think the first memory of the power it held over me was in second grade. I didn’t pass onto the third grade that year because I struggled with reading. It took me a little longer to get the hang of it, and my parents decided that instead of my fighting the material in the third grade, I would benefit for an extra year. Today, I know that decision was made out of love and great parenting. I didn’t feel like that at the time.
Here is what I have learned since then. The only way to fight back doubt is to believe in yourself and have a little faith. Life has never given me anything easily except the one thing that truly matters ― love from an amazing family. You would think that was all I needed, but for some reason, it was never enough.
No matter how much support that surrounded me, if I didn’t learn to believe in myself, and work damn hard to shut the doubt monster up, I would have never had the courage to moved forward, reach the simplest dream. That little voice had the power to stop me in my tracks, make me feel inept. So, I could either listen to it, or stop the cycle of doubt. I was my own worst enemy. I can still hear my mom’s wise words, “Nancy, you need to get out of your own way.” It took me a few years to realize what that meant.
Here is the magic: The doubt monster only has power over me if I give it power. Positive thinking is my greatest weapon. I have to believe in myself and in my dreams. So when it lurks into the edges of my self-conscious, I take a deep breath, shake the negative thought from my head, and blow right through it. That is how I finished my first novel, then the second one, and it will be what gets me to the end of my third book. And my reward for keeping my doubt monster at bay is an overwhelming sense of accomplishment and contentment.
So here is my challenge for today. I challenge all of you to start believing in yourself and take back your power. Get out of your own way. And remember, this isn’t something you do once and it’s gone forever. Shutting up the doubt monster will be something we will all have to work on every day, even every hour. But the one thing I do know, taking back control is very worth it.
((Hugs to all))
Nancy C. Weeks
Author of In the Shadow of Greed
Release date: 29 April 2013